A little known fact about me: I like to do it all. Have every experience, relish every opportunity, squeeze every ounce of possibility out of life. In some ways it’s a great way to live life- Carpe Diem! However, in my past it’s been a downfall.
In high school I was the kid who was in band, choir, mock trial, editor and chief of the newspaper, competed in tennis and swimming, and had AP classes. I was a great student, a good athlete, and was mildly successful at the rest of it, but never exceptional. It was mid-way through my senior year when my AP history teacher pulled me aside, noticing how frantic I always seemed, and asked me a question that would stick with me to this day, “do you want to be good at a bunch of things, or exceptional at a couple?”
I’m sure at the time, I got all defensive and assured him I would be fine with my current way of living, but as I reflected, I saw the wisdom behind his words. I tried to adapt and learn to say no when I got to college, but it too was an all-you-can-eat buffet of opportunities. My history teacher’s words haunted me throughout my college career, especially in those moments of stress. I really became a glutton for punishment- I couldn’t say no to something I thought would propel me to the next level.
My current mindset leads me to believe that once I’m employed it will resolve itself, right? I mean if you work a full-time job, there’s no time for much else; you have to be dedicated to it in order to succeed. Even though I’m not fully employed at the moment, my self-destructive tendency has reared its ugly head. I currently have an unpaid internship that I’ve mentioned, three times a week, a paid virtual internship that takes up 20 hrs per week, a volunteer PR job with a non-profit and I blog for an online venture. I just struck me today, how I’m going to be great at all of these things?
I’d like to think of myself as perfectionist, which is something I’m not sure exist. The truth is however, while all of these great experience are contributing to my craft, I feel like I’m doing them for the wrong reasons- to get a job. I want to learn, and I am for the most part. But I’m (YoPRo’s) the byproduct of a system designed to sacrifice quality for quantity. “The more internships the better,” seems to be our motto.
Hopefully, sooner rather than later, I’ll be able to say that as a full-time employed PRofessional that I’ve found a nice well-rounded system, but for the time being wish me luck!